I hate it when you shut down on me like that.
I hated myself not shutting you out of my life.
I hate it because I'm the reason you do.
I apologize and forgive myself for even thinking that.
You repeatedly talk about how much you don't like talking about feelings, and sad things.
I repeatedly listened to my guilt over my heart.
You think you're the one who's afraid of scaring me away?
I know you were more afraid I'd walk away.
I'm terrified you're the one who'll get fed up and walk out forever.
I was more terrified waking up naked next you, feeling pain; red pain.
I am so completely in love you.
You fucked this up. You fucked me up.
Written by Amanda B Hansen
2016 April 23