April 21, 2016: I Hate You

I spent seven years wasted in your shadow.
I stopped spilling my heart on your sleeve
the day you shelved me my corner.

I am not upset with you.
I'm not even so much as emotionally
scarred, or tearing away
your face from memory. 

I can only be mad
at my own subconscious
for taking you back
time and time again.

College ruined us. 

No, you moving away.
That's what ruined us. 

We helped taint
this friend(attempt-at-romance)ship
with piles of lies and duct tape promises. 

I hate who I've become
despite remaining invisible
to you. 

"If you don't think
we're going to work out
then we won't." 

 

Written by Amanda B Hansen
2016 April 21