Christmas lists. Something I'm sure we've all done at some point or another in our lives. Here I am, 27 years old, and still, I love making Christmas Lists. Some of which I began writing down back in January, others have since come true. So, without further ado, here is my 2016 Christmas List.
17. I wish to celebrate Christmas with those who love me for who I am as I love them for who they are.
16. I wish my husband and I have a better handle on our finances.
15. I so wish that together, Greg and I can afford to move into a house as early as May 2017. Fingers crossed.
14. I wish to devote more time to bettering myself, including going to more ilovekickboxing classes as well as cross-stitch and write more poetry.
13. I wish for my dad and I to make time to sit down and watch the first season of Superman (1952).
12. I wish to go back to playing video games on a somewhat regular basis with my husband. We deserve that important couples time together.
11. I do so wish that I do not lose any more close friends. 2016 has been the year I've had to learn that while we all make mistakes, it how we go about asking for forgiveness and being human enough to know when to forgive and forget and to simply just burn it.
10. I wish to have a better relationship with my cousin, Aasta. I would also wish for a relationship with the rest of her family, however, it does take all of us to mend what has been slowly cracking for over 40 years. I do only know my mother's side of things as I'm sure she does as well. If there's one thing this feud of sorts has taught me, it's that when the adults fight, it will always be the kids who suffer.
9. I wish to have a better relationship with my sister-in-law and her husband. I hope we can soon get to a place where we can be ourselves around each other. He has become part of this family whether he likes it or not. I have learned a lot over our unique situation since we lost my brother to cancer. I learned that Jerome can still teach me a thing or two even in spirit. I learned that it is true what they say, "no can replace them." Because, no one actually tries. Josh has never tried to fill Jerm's shoes. He walks in his own shoes helping Sarah raise their family together. I believe it all comes down to one of my favorite sayings, "Love is infinite. We can always make more when need be."
8. I wish to find a job that I can see myself still being at in three years time.
7. I wish for no more accidents with my car. We just paid quite a bit to fix it up.
6. I wish my Gramma Millie did not have onset dementia. It was terribly hard to see her like that. At the same time, I wish I would have asked her more questions when I was younger. It would be nice to know what she was like before I was born. I'm sure my dad has told me countless stories, but for now, the only one I remember is him helping her with her cookies, "One for the pan, one for me." Things sure haven't been the same since Grampa Leighton passed. I miss him.
5. I wish, sometimes, I wasn't as empathetic as I am. It hurts to know and feel what others outward emotions tell me. It hurts even more to know that pain on a more personal level.
4. I wish for my family to have regularly schedules Game Nights, or even Family Dinner nights. That way we can talk more and not miss out on what's important. I mean, I talk with my mom more than my dad or sister, but we should all talk, together, more often than not.
3. I wish for Greg and I to get married. Not sure if this year is the best year, and it would be nice to have it over the fall season instead of say, summer or even spring time. Why? I love the Fall. I love it when it's brisk but warmly.
2. I wish to never work a retail clerk job again. No employee should get the stink eye just for wanting to work a different shift.
1. I wish that this year brings more love and kindness than heartache and tears.
Amanda B Hansen